Dear diary.. ahaha!
i n0e i n0e my bl0ggy is g0d damn b0ring.. kurz i d0nt 0ften bl0g n p0st ryte..
h0kayhh.. let me emphasis s0mfink.. hak! after the w0rst n0ightmare werkink in cavana (yes! i w0rked ther bef0r.) where a nayme was given t0 me by al0t 0v my c0stemerssss(basically c0stemers frm canbra sec. waha),, i was naymed 0r t0 be m0re precised,, labeled as,, KAKAK CAVANA. kuang asam t0l.. waha! decided t0 try pidzahud.. well.. w0rkin ther was estatic.. h0weber,, tiring 0f k0rz.. u needa tayke 0rder,send the f0od,drinks,c0llect the bill,prebase,clear the f0odstufs n yeah.. d0 the cl0sing. yea w0rk sux! i n0e! N0netheless.. i enj0yed the c0mpany 0ver ther. h0wever,, nt the malayss.. the chinese.. the malays was s0..... gahh. terribly arr0gant t0 the extent 0f excessive maximum.. never mind.. juzt d0nt step 0ver the line.. my line t0 b precise..
h0kayh.. nt tryna bl0w my 0wn h0rnn(hey d0n c0py my ines h0kayh)bt, Emily likes me.. wahah hu's emily? the m0st seri0us n fierce mgr.. haha! i shud nt elab0rate y n h0w i n0e she likes me. wehehe.. maebe i l0ok like a nerd kurz i tie my hair?? haha.. n yea the fact is tat i l00k lyke a nerd wen my hair is tied up.. wahah.. n u d0n 0ften c my hair bein tied up d0nt u? 0V K0RZ I D0WANA L0OK LYKE A NERD G0D DAMN IT.! GAAhaha!
h0kayhh..
thers 3 philiphin0s n 4 china staffs.. haha.. n the way they t0lk tickles my tummy. haha.. nk cakap gagap p0n ader nak ckp slang p0n ader.. senang kater da gagap tapi nk step slang... YES! I DID IT W0OH0O!
china staff-
Gu0 Lu.. the sweet grll.. hu's 19 bt l0ok as iv 16.. ahha! she's sweet i tell u.. haha..s0rry is her fav0urite w0rd n faster is the back up.. haha.. n cute is her middle nayme.. n u n0e wart tat maykes my hart ride r0aler c0aster??? its lyk 0h my g0sh she fell ystd at the bar k0z the fl0or was slippery.. the impact was lyk.. gah i d0n0 h0w t0 descrybe.. pity herr. seri0usly.. helped her up n wipe her dirty shirt.. awww q'ain sh0o0 shweet.. XD
Ah wu.. hmm,, the bar guy.. he's damn pr0fessi0nal 0n handling the heavy l0ad glasses 0n a tray,, up his sh0ulder.. hah.. He gave me tips seh.. haha.. bt.. despite the fact tat he's co0l,, he fcuk every c0stemer hu's b0ssy n demandin.. haha..
philipin0s-
j0sh.. u irritatin j0sh! haha.. bt hhe's hands0me alright. he's 0ne 0f them hu keep irritatin me while im d0in my werk.. ahah h0nestly,, i l0ok seri0us wen w0rks tyme.. s0 they'l tease n play prank 0n me u n0e wen bz tymes.. haha.. theres tis 0ne tym i carried a heavy l0ad glasses exactly like ah wu did n j0sh saidd.. "wahh str0nngg sehh.." gahhh j0sh im g0na kill u! haha n f0r the prankk.. u n0e in pic h0urs,, "ei,, mgr k0l u.." "wher?" "inside kitchen" "G0TCHA!" gahh!
Alsdryn.. 0hs mys g0shs.. he's s0 hands0meeeeee haha! he gave me the warmest smile he c0uld c0njure... wahaha i melt i melt.. haha.. nn he th0ught i was a philipin0 t0os.. gurrrr hel0o0o0 im malay h0kayh.. mix la actually..
k n0w,, singap0reann staff.. haha! layme.
Ting huan.. she's helpfull t0 the maximum sia.. very! nn btw,,is there any writing 0n my f0rehead telling,, i can keep secret 0r i can giv u advises k0z she me shared her pr0blemss.. bgr pr0bs.. haha.. she's nyce..
Cherrie.. never fail t0 smile whenever she saw me.. hah sweet is her middle nayme..\
cherrie,,, C0CK! haha she th0ught the n0nsentical stuffs t0 Gu0lu kn0wing the fact tat gu0lu w0nt understand.. she th0ught gu0lu,, "c0ck", "ur bra wat size" n "i wan ur ass" haha! dumy.!
B0b!!!!!!!!!!! s0oner 0r later u'll turn int0 r0tten dead m0use f0r irritatin plus teasin me b0b.. hah! u peanut butter jelly chicken strawberry jam chilli tuna sandwitch! cant get enuff 0v me la he.. real nayme,, Haili. yes,,malay.
h0kayhh the malay(girls) staff.. they... h0w shud i sayy.. i think arr0gant shud d0 best. h0kayhh.. frst they th0ught im nt a malay.. nd i sh0wed the nayme tagg. haha,,.. gurshhi dun0e h0w t0 descrybe.. k enuff.
k lastly, w0rkin 0n hari raya 3 days straigght is patheticly awfull!!!!! hate it.. ne0mye..
class challet c0min.. fely lyk g0in bt i d0ubt s0 all my classmates feel the same.. haizz..
k,, i wana hav my breakfast.. hha n0m0re fasting days. weeee!
ps.. i miss h0ckey! n0n0n0n0 i miss singap0re h0ckey.. the girls especially.
n t0 arim.. i'll always be here n0 mmatter wat. 0nie i kn0ws h0w.
Bye diary!! next hiakdish! (TM)
Dear diary...
it has been ages since i last p0st ..
lyfe has been t0ugh th0ugh.. N0netheless... i had muchmuch.. berry much fuun n excitements durink the teachers day peri0d.. well,, nt exactly the teacher's faycess. hhaa! dis ain't a verbal abuse huh.. hhaa..
0k.. fasting m0nth.... h0wever... my friendss.. 0r shud i rather say my friends n i,, are still indulging idle g0ssips.. hhaa... well,, at least im darin enuff t0 v0ice 0ut..unlyke s0me0ne... hha..
n 0h yah.. the unconscious habbit 0f dragging my hand through my messy hair wen i was deep in th0ught are still present in my lyfe.. HABBITS!
k back t0 the teacher's day... yea.. i tink m0st 0f u ppl aware tat my band perf0rmed fer der teachers 0n tat particular daey.. uhuh!
ST0P DR0P N R0CK! rmbr? haha..
s0 yeah i did the guitar n the 2nd v0calist.. h0pe it is well d0ne.. l0ok 0ut!!!
Dear Diary...
in a sudden th0ught,, i felt the sence 0f guilt r0se up my bl0od cells..felt regret. felt mad. felt sad n at the sayme tyme, felt glad.finally u realised. u realised the hardship ive been thru... h0w hard i tried 2 put things back t0 stand up.. h0w hard i tried 2 find the perfect glue 2 stick back the c0llapsed building i had built t0gether wth u..
bt i failed. failed at tat p0int 0f tyme.. k0z naive is the perfct werd 2 supp0rt b0th 0f us's character. eg0 is the back up. i hated myself f0r my change,.. i blamed myself f0r my insanity. insanity in reality that made u hate me.. i screwed the b0th 0f us up by my 0wn sickening d0ings. called myself _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ n did nt shine f0r u n be there wen u nied me.. th0ught u f0rget all abt me.. bt, everything abt me,, is neutral n fresh in ur brainb0x. sumptimes i ask myself.. h0w stupid am i.. h0w f0olish am i n h0w pathetic am i t0 make the m0st stupidest m0ve... ppl all arnd t0lk abt us. abt me. abt me _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ u.. bt.. never had i blame u fer tthat.. k0rz i n0e.. itz al my f0ult. i shud swall0w the blames and i shuld gulp in the pain. perhapz i g0t the perfect label 0f mine frm ppl.. n i guess i shud shayke 0n it. i mean,, agree 0n it.. ima sweeet-t0lk-m0ther-fucker. i get it. bt i hav 2 tell this. i kn0w wart i say n i mean wart i say. i juzt d0 things with0ut thinkin.. thats my w0rst habbit. bt i t0o cant blayme tat.. k0z i n0e im matured enuff t0 think..
bt.... y n0w??? y n0ww then u realised??? im nt saying its a lil t0o layte bt.. y n0t lastyme??? h0wever. im realie glad u said wart u hav 2 say 0ut. it sumh0w make me feel im appreciaterd. n u said its n0nne 0f 0ur f0ult. the ppl arnd. bringing me beck t0 th0se mem0irs... i duwanaa run away.. i admit. ttz the sweetest part 0f my lyfe. i shared evrything with u.. n s0 d0 u. N0 SECRETS BETWEEN US. Rrmbr..? i n0e u d0.. n u even n0e that im penakut.. haha. u made me giggle.. u saed u miss me n u saed u l0ve me.. tats the sweetest w0rds u can put up fer me. n0netheless. i cant hide it. i admit. ily n imy truckl0ads t0o.. i shud shayke 0n this,, everunyte, i lay my head 0n my pill0w,, i prayed.. i prayed perhaps 0ne day u'll realised.n eventually my wishes came truee, n u did... i felt glad. really glad. n tat m0ring, at 12.34 am, u did the sweetest thing any0ne can d0 t0 me..i hereby t0 say i apppreciate it damnl0t! sumptymes i w0nder.. im blind! t0o blind lyk h0w my mum emphasised 2 me. i cant even differensiate diam0nd n glass.. perhaps,, i shuld put this strait in my mind. NEW FREND ARE SILVER. 0LD FREN ARE G0LD.
n0w.. thats abt it. thank u l0t,.. f0r ur mem0ries..
f0r ur c0urage fr me t0 stand. i l0ve u n will always d0.
ekacyppuc ev0l enihsnus.bye diary.
Dear diariiee..
fuuh,, i diz ting hd never came acr0os my bl00ody mind.. id neber th0ught i wuld be well rec0gnize by der things im in t0. f0r instance h0kie 0r fl0orb0ol..
h0wever,, jan00w,, sum1 smses me.. askin me.. h0kay juz read...
tat sum1-ain, the pasirian c0ach ask me if u interested 2 j0in the club.The pesta sukan t0urn is cumin.
mua-he specificly ask me 0r wart?
tat sum1-yar. he said that tall gerl that tyme hu play..
mua-ala n0t me la. i tink its farah.farah 0s0e tall wart.. i scared later paiseh.
tat sum1- he that time g0t c0me 0ur skul. then just n0w in the m0rning he say that gerl wasnt ther that tyme.
aft tat sum1 say tt,, im a lil c0nvinced its me.. bt nt t0tally larh. bt,, im afraid i'll tr0uble tat sum1 m0rre if i keep askin her t0 c0nvince me tat the c0ach is referin t0 me.. thuss....
mua-ehk, 0h anytink uhk. hu elses in 0ur skul selecterd?
tat sum1-n0 0ne elses. he said if interestd tel him. trg strts aft nati0nal day, i'll tell u m0re details later 0nn..
denn,, i as lyke,, h0kayyhh,,, im rec0gnized by 0thers n n0t my 0wn skul teacher... 0f k0rz la lyk i said wart,, TEACHERS ARE SUCH A PAIN IN DE ASS.. MY ASS!!!!! y teacherssss?? any pr0blem with that!!!??? g0 get sum lyfe h0kayhh,...
0kehh. tats preety abt it.. n 0h yeah,, i l0ike, l0ve, ad0re mua newwww f0ne larrhh.. haha.. let me hint u wart f0ne im referin 2.. u shake the f0ne n de s0ng changes 2 der next 0ne.. cu0ol huh... deariee hunie bun says it suits me al0t k0z gt the running indicat0r f0r sp0rts gerl.. gagaa! i l0ve the f0ne.. bt i l0ve hunbun m0re! haha.. s0rrieee baby f0nie.. hah!
0k0k, enuff 0v my craps,, prawns, squids.. gahh! kk i stp.. perhaps im a lil exciterd tat im actuallie rec0mmended 2 j0in pasirian club.. k0z,, laztyme,, i hav 2 g0 fer h0kie trials in 0rder fer me 2 j0in tat sweet thresians club bt n0 i dun hav 2 g0 er any trialls. haha! wheee!
k,, tatata diariiee!
Dear diariee..
wardever i d0,is nasty in eur eyes. is n0 pr0blem with mine bt its a pr0blem i find..
But thats the way that it g0es and its wart n0b0dy kn0ws and everyday my c0nfusi0n gr0ws..
My Chimed eyes fall as my Words aren't needed.
When discomfort locks you in.
Exposed, upon the rugged carpet,Other voices wondering what's wrong.
But the set of eyes still attached.
The yellow scene trys to become old Runaway..
Fears on the limb of my feet.
My skin becoming loose.
Marks begin to crowd my body.
My heart Is the last thing to get reality.
Mighty red Takes my train of thoughts.
Temperatures rise Sight inside your bite.
Y0U SIGNED ME 0FF AS VULNERABLE.
Words whistle through me like notes in a song.
I try not to judge them and say that they're wrong.
But I find there are feelings I'm scared to express.
Because I don't know what will happen, unless...
I say what I think and mean what I say.
How will life go if I work this new way?
I'm scared of rejection, ridicule and pain
Although keeping it in might drive me insane
It's a risk and a gamble, not really a chore
But a new way of living I long to explore.
my ap0l0gy if my character d0esnt fufill ur requirement.
u think you know me,like you've got me all figured out.
u think you know everything,like you have it all figured out.
Open your eyes,take a look around.
Fact of the matter is,nothing could be further from the truth.
u noe half of who I am,but you haven't figured me out.
u noe half of everything,but you haven't figured it all out.
Open your mind,think for a moment.Fact of the matter is,you're just so blind.
u can't bring method to my madness.u can't bring order to my chaos.
u can't justifty your crimes.You can't forgive your own sins.
u may tear down my walls,but I'll just build them back up.
u can break my spirit,but it will always heal.
u tink I'm trapped in your web,but I'm free as a bird.
u tink I'm twisted around your finger,but I'm straight as an arrow.
The game is over,it ended a long time ago.
u can slam the door,but I've already walked away.
I've spread my wings,I've flown away.
u can go down,but you're not taking me with you.
bt iv i were 2 change,, then it'll nt b the real me.
tat is y,, f0r i made a change i wont see u t0nyte.
Dear diary..
h0kayh where shud i begin??/
split pers0nallitieee!
h0nestlie,, i hate de idea 0f split pers0nality thingy..
its lyk gurshh..
0ne m0ment ur lyk dis n the 0ther ur lyk tat.,. cumm0-n.. be eurselvv.. t0 me 0riginality is the best p0licy..
itz lyk thr0uh c0ms ur lyk s0 talkative bt reality,, nt a werd came 0ut frem ur sealed m0uth.wat u d0es,, laughed wen j0kes cracked. f0r all thiz years n juz diz 0ne ur lyk s0 diff.. h0nestlie, we prefer ur 0ld pers0nality.. much2 better. 0k have it say that u wana change.. 0k,, i n0e frm las tym u will always envy me.. envy abt my attracti0ns 2 0thers n my achievements.. duh lar 0v k0rz. im much better as im much m0re intimiate abt stuffz.. n n0w,, having a pers0nality thr0ugh net like me??? gah! using my phrases?? gah! 0h wartever!
0k i hate abt telling ppl 0ff abt dem,,, c0pyig me,, bt l0olk at the situati0n... askin me where n wart style i cut my hair n return wiv the sayme hairstyle thenext day.. iznt tat c0pying.. iv it isnt.. den i made a big mistayke.
h0w abt askin me where d0 i get this stuff n retur wiv the similar stuff the next day,, iznt tat c0pying? ivit isnt then i made a mistayke fer der sec0nd tym.. n0w,, c0pying my art werk fer my n leverl! my n leverl wrk piece.. h0w ii realise its a c0y w0rk??? jimmy tan says im the ferst hu uses tat meth0d 0v paintin in n level s0 far.. n next day,, an0ther art piece with the sayme meth00d 0vpaintin as me.. use the st0ol tt i uses summ0re.. isnt tat c0pying? if it isnt... den diz is the thrd tymr me makin a mistayke..
c'mm0n.. d0nt u feel the guilt r0se thr0ugh ur bl0od cells wen u c0py??? m0re 0r less, d0nt u feel any sence 0v embarassment wen u c0py s0me0ne else? 0r perhapz,, u enj0y the sence 0f satisfacti0n getting the sayme attracti0n as the pers0n u c0pied??? 0k,, since lastyme,, never had i v0iced 0ut my th0ughts abt ppl f0ll0win n c0ppyin.. bt,, its far bey0nd expactati0ns n limitati0ns..
h0kayh.. wartver.! keep c0ppyin ppl.. bek0z h0w hard u try 2 b s0me0ne.... i bet u u will never pass. b0t0m line, u w0nt get pass grade f9.... im gud im gud!
Bye diary n bye suckerz! c0ppyrights.. 0r shud i rtather sae,, C0PYWR0NG!
Dear diary/..
ermm,, wart shud i ryte???
h0kayh,... slimm stuffz?
haha,, kk,, diz week a lil bzz luh,.,. a lil la.. 2 t0 train n 1 2 ad0re..
kinda tired bt yeah,, adapted 2 it alreadie la.. since y0ung,, my schedule has been tight.. s0,, n0tin much 2 pr0tess abt.
h0kayh.. i h0pe they impr0ve.. n yeah pr0ud 0f em... sh0wed interest n,, they skipped breakfast rcesstime.. s0 impress.. h0wver,, they l0ok depres.hha! ne0mye.. iv there's a will,, theres always a way.. jia y0! i believe u can.. bt,, the m0st thing is fr u t0 believe in urselv...
0k,, ystd went j0ggin as per n0rmal.. frm canbbera sec 2 s.p t0 smbw prim 2 smbw sec 2 my bl0ck 2 minimart 2 my capark n 2 my d0orstep.. it t0ok me 14 minit29 secs.. h0w sl0w! gah! n gues wart i had a c0mpetat0r la seh... while runin al0ng frm smbw prim 2 my bl0ck ther,, an 0ld inidisn guy seems 2 b c0mpeting wimmie k0z hes like 0vertakin me n lyk duh la i'll 0vertayke him beck.. bt he'ss damn gud l0h.. maebe laztym he's a singap0re h0ki player.. 0r even cricket player. ahhas! bt f0-rtunatelie,, i w0n! gaga! win 0ver an 0ld man?? h0w shameful.. ala bbt hes lyk in the erly 50's la.. haah. 0k aper..
n t0day c0mpleterd 3 km kn 15minit12 secs.. 0h i hate tiz leg.. leagurement pr0blem.. did i spell it ryte.. wartever!
n,,yah s0me0ne appr0ach me in msn.. hu???? surprisingly.. mimie! w0ah! haha.. blablab!
0k,, im tired aite n0w.. wana t0k 2 gub-l. lurp!
bye diaryy.. im tired!
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